Jessie Reyez- Before love came to kill us
i love music. i always have. it has guided me to understand my emotions since high school and has been an outlet for me to release them as well.
Jessie reyez is the artist who took that to the next level for me.
a friend of mine showed me her song “figures” a few months after it debuted on the youtube channel ‘colors’ and let me just say, wow. it became the first song i played every time that i got into car and the last song i played every time that i got out of it. it just did it to me.
i heard it at a time in my life that i was falling for someones charm that was so compatible with mine. i enjoy being charming and flirtatious. I also tend to give my all to someone from the start because i just think that they deserve it. they deserve to feel secure with me and to not question if or how interested i am. i don’t like games. although, i tend to allow them to happen at times. this only leads to me breaking my own heart when i stick around and then wishing that i had it in myself to do to them what they did to me. to play their game right back, become less available and less transparent. sitting curious if they would ever be aware of what they really had being given to them and if they would ever feel a sense of emptiness without it. wanting to to say “tell me boy how in the f*ck would you feel, if you couldn’t get me back?” to see if that opens their eyes to life without me before i take that step and go.
you know those little confidence boosters you get out of nowhere? like when you find the perfect outfit in your closet for a night out of the house. Or when your make-up goes on better than most days. when the pre-workout kicks in at the gym lol. we need a song for those moments to keep us on that high and “dope” is one of mine. it’s my “sorry it took me so long to get ready, i was dancing in my mirror” type of song.
she talks herself up to the guy across the room knowing what she’s got to offer and he’s about to find out. the energy in her voice and the fun beat behind it, makes it almost impossible to restrain from showing some sass and busting out your moves.
have you ever been fooled with the person they told you not to worry about and become over protective of yourself or your next love because of it? me too.
“intruders” puts me in a place mentally that reminds how much of my own back i’ve really got. i’m willing to be vulnerable and put myself out there but please don’t try and break in past what i’m giving you. If i’m confident in the way that you feel about me then i will continue to open up. i love to love but don’t pull me in just to see how far you can take it. i know who i am and what i have to offer and if we are together, i know who you are and what you have to offer as well. I know that there will always be eyes wandering onto us but please no intruders.
for him: don’t intrude on me and my heart if you’re only going to break us up.
and for the wandering eyes: don’t intrude on me and my love with someone for it belongs to me and him. it’s ours and not yours to take.
I could go on and break down every song on this album and bore you with my stories of love, heartbreak and moving on. guy or no guy though, this album continues to resonate with me because of the way that she manages to put into words everything that i feel so i can sing it at the top of my lungs (with bobby cruz) and release all of my pent up energy and thoughts. take a listen yourself and see what it does for you.
these tracks are the ones that my heart felt the most
Kill us
same side
do you love her
coffin
i do
dope
intruders